Haiz.....

Why is it so difficult for others to accept who we are and where we come from...
Fate somehow have a cruel joke on us...But challenges in life are meant to be faced so that we get better and that we learn something out of it.

It could be one of the most painful injury in life but does that mean you just give up?
Does that mean you can take whats not yours?
Kill,murder or sacrificed other people's life?

Think about it!!!

Who the FUCK are you to decide for others!!!

Why can't you just try and understand and be happy for the ones you loved if they are happy.

I strongly believe its not up to me to judge for others especially if the person i truly love is happy with their decision and that person is truly am happy.
I maybe young and stupid and playful most of the time but that doesn't mean i don't know what I Need/Wants... [more of a need then wants ]

Life is to short to regret what have been done or not done...
Lets just go with the flow....
Let fate decides....
If we are not meant for each other then so be it but please it's not because you wanna please someone else but it is to your own accord or that I've done grave mistake or its just because of me that i truly suck...

Hopefully you get what I'm trying to say.... If u are reading it anyways

As for now to me it's just one of those phase that I've gone through and am not gonna give the r/s up NEVER.....Till death do me part....waahaha

My only love sprung from my only hate,
Too early seen unknown,when known too late
Prodigious of love it is to me,that your parents loath me till end of days.

But no matter what my feelings and my thoughts of you remain the same.

A JOURNEY

First of all i want to say that I'm lost,maybe hahax am not too sure.So yupp???

Oh well,i don't really fucking give a damn about what others think or feel other then you.
It's not gonna be an easy walk in the park!There's obstacles and challenges that we have to go thru.It gets yucky,sticky and boring at times but that's part and parcel of A JOURNEY of a life.

These journey that we have took.Have created loads of memories,histories and we get mature and stronger in it.
I don't care if the world comes to an end or my life is at stake i would risk it all,at the end of the day I'm still human and I'm not about to give up to something that i love and cherished...Nope its just not in my vocabulary/dictionary.The tougher the journey gets the more I'm gonna push thru it because at the end of the day I'm the one who is madly in love with ya....

I know and understand that family and friends matter...But look at the facts at the end of the day it's still you who matter and its your future.Its your journey and its your picture that is being painted,so how colourful or interestingly the journey gonna go it still boils back to oneself...
I really appreciate the fact that you acknowledge my very existence and the Truth is i have once given up on love and this time round if i have to give it up again I'm so gonna be devastated,crushed,crumble,tumble......

We have gone thru what others took years to develop and Ive seen or heard of similar cases.Those who made it have a happy ending after a long painful journey those who does not make it, live a life of regret so yupp.....I do know a few of them so I'm not gonna allow myself end up in the same situation.Definitely I'm gonna work my ass off to get that happy ending no matter how painful the journey gonna take me..

I've decided and my mind is made up...If there is no love then i would rather not exist ever again.So shall late fate decides and I'm not giving up.....NEVER!!!

Christmas is around the corner and its time to make merry and be jolly...Haiya whatever that is supposed to mean....
I was dreading y'day at work just couldn't wait for it to end and my guess is?? Lady luck is definitely not on my side y'day(fucking hell).Went to the bike shop to look for a nice ride and the moment i decided what i really wana get by the time i get back to the stupid fucking shop.....It's closed!!!
It's like freaking 20min lar for me to eat and come back to the bloody shop...What the fuck!
That's like the main course hahax after that tried to get thru u but couldn't.Luckily the dessert was ok.U called and we chat hahax...
It's my fucking off day again and yupp if u haven't guess it,I have no freaking idea what to do and where to go other then meeting up with u....Hmmm.............Hope its gona be a splendid day ahead

Here we go again....

Another weekend another super busy day at work.And yup?As expected one of colleagues throw a fucking stunt again ARGH!!!This time at the very last minute she applied for a fucking MC.Maybe its real maybe its not whatever it is it left me in a fucking undesirable position(fucking cunt).With only 2 freaking fucking full timer working on the weekend and only 1 rescue trained personal to handle the course its NO fucking joke....
Though i managed to handle it well the credit should also go to the part-timers for helping and understanding my work.
Saturday was manageable,Sunday was a killer.I don't even have time for a simple toilet break.
Well whatever is done,is done.Now looking forward to the next challenge.
Stay true to oneself and only help those who really need it,it helps to calm oneself hmmm.....

Going For Gold!!!

The Jump did it in one try,
The Pull is easy,
The Tummy can managed,
The Sprint is fast enough,
The Run is unbelievable.

These are the things that every man needs to clear every year if they are deemed fit by the government and the price is "gold" as long as you can achieve maximum points for each station.

If only life is that easy!!! Aim for the gold and just whacked as hard as your god given driving power allows you too.

Everyone makes mistake and when you think of things you've done you can't help to wonder if things could be better handle or managed.Though I've never regretted everything that I've done,i still do wonder if i could have done it better.
"In order for you to be old and wise you need to be once,young and stupid"
That's, the catch phrase Ive used through out the years....hahax...

With time my instinct teach me to be a better person though the JACKAL in me keeps on telling that it's not worth to be a nice guy most of the time..hahax.....I've got to admit! It's freaking fucking hard to be a fucking nice person(don't think its in my nature)

Thanks to you every time i hear from you it just keeps me back rite on track to know that there is someone out there who still cares enough for me...

When will i get to see?I really hope the answer is soon hehe......

Something Missing

Feel tired but cannot sleep.
Eyes open but not watching.
Stomach empty but not hungry.
Wanna sleep but brains not resting.

Haiz...Its one of the most shittiest feeling u could ever get.You don't really know what is it that is missing.Been at home since 1930hrs and been doing fuck all!!! Haiz...what the fuck is wrong.

There are times that self reflection is a major turn over and there are times that it's pointless.

Helping others in their journey to self recovery have always been a pleasure.It gives great comfort to the listening ear and gives good vibes to the person that is helping.

As time flies the relationship that is being build should grow stronger and unbreakable.Tons of memories have been created and the impact is tremendous.

Cherished it and relished the moment.

Rar

Work is like freaking me out lar.

1. Got datelines need to meet.
2. Things keep on spoiling.
3. Hate the fucking batt used for my power tools.(they don't work too well for me)
4. Running low on cash.
5. They changed my off day like no body's business.

It feels gd though y'day.Met up with the guys to sabo Hab on her b'day.It was cool with me and Kaz teaming up against her.It's all in the name of gd fun.

Met up with you 1st for dinner then u went home to pack your stuff.(more like to collect your stuff)Meet up with u again later in the nite to help u pack u S.D.A(stupid dumb ass).Waahaha it was cool though that i get to help you and meet u b4 u go off again on your ever busy schedule.hehe.....Well whatever it is every moment spent with you makes me feel gd,plus it makes us grew closer woohoo!!!

"It's kindda weird though how much you would miss a person when the person is not around you!!!"

Hope u cherished the moment to.

I've got a feelings that most of my bros needed help now but at the moment no one is voicing their concern or troubles yet and like an average joe (as Always)i will just keep quiet and wait for the updates...

It feels good to help others but never neglect whats closest to your heart.

Work will always be Work

After spending 2 wonderful days and nite.Its now back to the real world(work).

The time spent with u was priceless and would love to go thru it again if given the option hahax.....

Oh well.... when it comes to work things have just been alil off normal...2 staff tendering their resignation where as the rest i have no idea whats in their mind....What used to be one of the greatest team now seemed to fall apart..Well i guess its just part and parcel of life.Its easy to get to the top but maintaining it is another question.Though i strongly believe we have yet to get there(top).

Could it be because of burn out? Could ppl have changed? Better offer was given? Well whatever it is the management staff may need to consider or look into it seriously because its not easy to create what have been created.And they need to learn to cherished or at least acknowledge the effort that have been put in...Hmmm......that's what i feel anyway.

Well as for me work have piled up...And more things needed to clear and all that i need is basically time...Need to learn to be able to sustained though I'm aware that i have great endurance level....Need to care for my body too...hahax....

At the end of the day its the passion that drives you to achieve greater heights.

Feels gd.com

It feels damn good 2nite hahax...yupp,yupp

Finally get to talk to u for the longest time since u went away for holliday....Though it's over the bloody msn it's gd enough for me hahax.Oh Well i'm just a simple guy with simple needs and expensive taste waahaha..

It feels weird though after a freaking tiring day at work you just managed to gather that last bit of strength left to carry on chatting....Oh Well these are the things that we do for our love ones i guess...And to top it up at the end of the conversation you just feel complete....I believe thats where Jerry McGuire get his lines from hahax fucking copycat..

Hmm....now with a more relax and peaceful mind u just managed to recharged yourself and ready for the oncoming battle ahead woohoo!!! Bring it on beb....

Work can never end it's just those mini satisfying moments would keep u going....Well thats life,love u?.....Yes i do,miss u? Thats for sure just can't wait for u to come back hahax

In the mean time gd nite sweet dreamz......

Sometimes i just wondered do u really do love me or u don't.
I'm nobody special i ain't got grt powers but i do noe wad is love and Damn rite i love you.You complete me in every way that i'm lacking though it's tough to digest for me but thats the fact and i can never run away from the fact.

To all the guys out there,if u really do love a gal;

1. Cherished her in every way u can.
2. Don't try to impress her so much coz it's a gv away.
3. Love her for what she trully is.
4. Compliment her from time to time(eveyone loves a compliment)
5. Be true and not a bastard
6. Don't act smart when u are actually not.
7. Give in once in a while(it helps)
8. Remember her birthday(Very impt if u don't wana die early)
9. Care for her needs and wants(more for the needs then wants)
10. Be there for her(it's companionship everyone crave for)

To all the ladies if u do love a guy;

1. All of the above
2. Try not to belittle him(he is a guy he would definitely have sum ego in him)
3. Be patient with him

Remember and trust me when i say this....It's not ez for me to fall in love but when im in love i give u my all...

Left alone

Life of bein a bachelor is grt actually when u think of it possitively.

• No one really cares about u.
• U can do whatever u want.
• No one to report to.
• U can come home anytime u want.
• The road of freedom is endless.
• U keep whatever u earned.
• U spend whatever u earned.
• U can buy whatever u want with no obligation.

But its kinda bored too if u think of it negatively.

• U have to eat packet food day and nite.
• U have to do ur own laundry.
• No one else gona clear ur shit for u.(hahax)
• No one to share ur day with when all ur frens are bz with their own stuff.
• If u are broke u r totally broke.

So here is my AGENDA for today.

1. Wake up,wash up go get b'fast.
2. Come home to do laundry and hosehold responsibility.
3. Check my mail and see if theres anyone to chat with.
4. Mid afternoon go and help u booked for ur test date.
5. Buy food for lunch.
6. Clean my ppe(personal protection equipment)
7. Late afternoon go catch a movie.
8. Settle dinner after that then home sweet home.

So yupp,thats what im practically gona do on a typical off day of mine hahax.....Whats worst is that i'm on off 2mrw too and i've got no bloody idea what to do also.All my mates are at work and i don't intend to go to work on my off day.Most prob i may just go for a climb or sumting

I went to some massage parlour yesterday and it cost me $100plus lar freaking hell.I've got to endured 45mins of pain while the old man pull,squeezed,press and got knows what other things he did to my injured shoulder.I even teared lar fucking hell.....Luckily im feeling as gd as new today if not im so gona screw that old man shop for shop.

Oh well at least my shouder is a lot better nw woohoo......CAn go for my climb sn hehe..