Regroup

It's time to regroup,re-plan and do the things proper.
Had enough of this fucking miserable life!!! Whatever that have already been planned it's time for me to put it into actions...will take all the little steps need to get the big picture done.

Finance is fucking terribly wrong for me.I am so fucking sure to bounce back from the shit hole that I've been thrown into....Yupp I maybe fucking dirty and filthy not to mention pathetic.
No one got the fucking rite to judge or say what I'm doing is wrong..

I've always been like a candle to everyone especially my own DAMN family,giving them light to guide their way,enough warmth to keep them warm when they are cold but the fucking facts is I'm the fucking one who get burnt and melted away and being ignored left to dry and harden so that I could just be scraped off to dust and thrown away.

Though it's the festive season now,time for forgiveness and be merry..........
There's this big lump in my heart...The meaning of Hari Raya has just gone down the drain for me caused there is no point celebrating it.I am now left cold alone in the fucking coldest region in the world...

Hari Raya I am so fucking gonna disappeared as far as i could caused it's not meant for me.........
Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Peace

Hmm.....It's been along tiring journey. 1 after the other,though every lesson learnt make u grew stronger and mature there a flip-side to it too....U tend to understand so much more and at times it just come to a point where u just can't be bothered....

Do i really mean something to you??? hmmm...... Bet u can't even answer that.

Well it's a simple life treasure it and hopefully one day u are RECOGNIZED.Though I may be a nobody I do have feelings....(woah what an expensive toy,good job well done,you are so pretty).Thats what they all say but what goes inside and out plus the things that comes with it only i feel it.....

At time it can be so frustrating and irritating though i understand the circumstances.There is always a part of me that wanted to SCREAM out loud.Only god knows.Patience is virture and a peacefull mind comes with and open heart so here it goes............................

just oneof those random nites again..........Maybe,should,could it be.....Haix.........

Simplicity is the best policy!!!

That's how i feel at the current state of mind....
Loads have been goin thru...
Loads have been absorbed.....
Headaches comes and gone.....

So its time to play it SMART....
S - specific(what's the goal)
M - Measurable (is it enough)
A - action done/taken
R - realistic (can u achieve it/confidence)
T - Time (U can't take forever)

Though i hate what i feel and think at the moment but I'm just gona let nature take its course and hopefully u will realise if not then show me the way........