Home???

Is it really a home/shelter,
A heavenly place that I wanna look forward to at the end of the day after a super long tiring day,hmmm..........
HAix.....
At the moment i just feel that I'm just a guy who is renting a room.
I believe it could just be my stepmom.Though as hard as I've trie to respect her as the my father's queen she just does not deserve it.All she cared bout is to her own benefits.Other then bout her own son.I've got nothing against that lil guy though it's just her.Every lil thing that she does is just for her own sake.How selfish and plastic can one be....U have no fucking idea and I have felt it for the longest time and now it seemed that whatever my prediction is coming true....

What the heck!!!Hopefully my dad realise it too though I know how godly patient he can be...And there are also a slight possibility that he is part of it too.....Well whatever it is he sure does have my respect bcoz....just becoz.

Come home no food most of the time.If there is she would hide it away.She would spend unnecessarily whenever she got the opportunity to...
Since she can barely get anything out from me,now she is playing the game of finishing at home to make it look so desperate that i got no other choice but to use what lil $$$ I have so that the family can survived meaning at least there is food for them to eat.(pathetic games that she is playing....Motherfucking cunt)

Oh well whatever that doesn't kills you make u grew stronger that is what I believe for myself hahax...........

Just finish Naruto-ing waahaha...
Oh well what an interesting life i lead....hahax.
At least I'm not complaining,managed to clear tons of stuff y'day and it's my fucking off day again hahax...Wonder what I will be doing 2day??? Hmmm......
I may have a meeting later and i may decide to go Safra to meet the brothers hmmm....Not sure bout that hahax...O
Ouh wel just take 1 thing at a timeand shall see where it leads 2.......

Try as I might but ppl arnd me still thinks that I'm a bloody bad boy.
Oh well who cares as long as I'm true to myself and did no harm to any living things I believe I'm perfectly normal hahax...
Let others say as they want 1 thing for sure I'm just being me rather then being some faker waahaha....
Love spending time with my love ones,got plenty of work to clear and just bz Naruto-ing waahaha..
That would be all for me for this time round woohoo!!!!

Accomplished!!!

Though I'm stiil a long way to financial freedom at the moment I am happy with the things goin on arnd me...
Clear more work then usual....
Manage to spend some time with my love ones....
Able to plan and think ahead...

Though I may not be appreciated or acknowledge at the moment that is secondary so yupp..

ATTENTION???

Everyone in this world tend to be an attention seeker. It's either they demands it or if not they wished they are given the attention.

Either that they just can't be bothered with life for that period to just walk away or not or not to be bothered with their surroundings.Life itself is at attention when you wanna be recognized or to be known for?

As for me all i required right now is to be acknowledge? My love!!!
Hahax just some random thoughts that run thru my mind in the middle of the nite again and i thought it would be cool if I just type it down in my blogged.

Cock up???

Maybe I don't really know actually hahax....Whatever it is it's better then thinking out loud and not knowing what isit that you are thinking off...

oh well time to sleep gotta wake up for work 2mrw.........
Cya!!!

My love ,My life,My queen

These 3 words are the only words that binds me to sanity and life of rite path.Though no one knows where it may leads or where its heading to,it definitely keeps me on the passage of rightfulness.

All my life I've gone thru over countless battles and if I may say it's mostly victorious if not educational.So much have been thru and yet there is so much more to learn,seek and understand.....

Many have come to try and understand me and all have failed.All except one who occasionally from time to time are able to.She is some one whom i hold so dearly close to my heart.With every breathe that i take with every pump of my heart with every footsteps that i took she is there in my heart,in my mind,in my soul.

Knows it or not ?
Even if I am given none back in return it doesn't really matter caused at the end of this life,breathed that i took I've learn how to feel love.....................

Ok i have already decided now that it's gonna be no more nonsense for financial planing this month.
Damn it I fucking really hate the situation I'm fucking in this fucking shit hole.

Time to move on,get better and prove to myself again....

Went out with my love one again this afternoon though i don't really feel to well abt our first few conversation it just made me realised What a fucking loser I am,Yes!!! a fucking loser though i have lost this financial battle I definitely have gained enough experienced to know how to handle the situation if it ever arise again. And i fucking swear I am so gonna prepare myself to make sure that such fucking situation never happen to me again...

Once bitten twice shy now I am so gonna work my ass off to go back to where i used to be.I fucking understand it's gonna be tough for all this to happen this year but enough is enough and it's fucking time to get up and smell the fucking sunshine....

It's all about executing the fucking plan now...Only I can make it happen

It's a new kindda wierd feeling for me.....
Love my gf? Yes I do!!!
Miss my gf? Tremendously loads!!!

But again i don't really know how to show or let her feel it.Maybe I'm doomed for....Whatever that comes across my mind which was supposed to be convey to my gf just go thru the sms.....Argh I even mistakenly sms her in freaking malay lar....How stupid can i get...And now I bet she got doubts on me haiz............Sometimes gd intentions just get misinterpreted and it leads to another downfall...

Damn it I love my gf too much that sometimes when i have her in my mind in some other languages it just comes out by verbally if not thru writing...Is this gd or bad???
Seriously i have no ans to my own question now and that sucks.............

She have been bz and now that she is free i don't have the means to meet her.Financially broke!Got tons of work needs to clear! She is not feeling too well!!!
ARGH what the fuck is wrong with the world!!!
Why can't u just let me enjoy my time with me love ones without any hesitations or limitations argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!