As much as I don't wanna get involved with my family matter I somehow or rather would just lend out a helping hand haiz........I think it's just me or maybe I'm just being a nice guy,afterall family are family,blood is always thiker then water....Though I find that they could be so super stupid most the times but that's just th way they are and hopefully eventually they would learn from it.

As for my long winding journey to self realisation and reflection I basically know what i want and what i needed now....And with luck or pure hardship i believe I am now on the way to recovery woohoo!!! May nothing else comes up to disrupt my plans for the coming year,hahax..........

Planing is done!!!
Action's are coming!!!
Goals being set!!!
May 2010 be better then good and greater then great........

I am the way I am.
No one can understand me better then myself.
The needs and wants,the crave,the hate and all the deep thoughts that I have it's all within me.
The desire to keep on learning and get things done the proper way.

The feelings that i have in me haiz............

Completed one major job.....
Mummy dearest? MIA!!!
Haix what a fucking interesting life I lead....
Dearest life what the fuck am I supposed to do.I managed to make almost everyone happy!!!
But what about me?
What about love?
Duno no clue may not have the answer or maybe the answer u got is wrong.....
Life goes on and only time will tell........

NewMooon the movie I so wanna watch with u!!!!!!!
RAR

Just Me!!!

Have been working super hard lately...
Got no time for myself to entertain,so....

Here it goes.
Work is like killing me slowly and painfully.Maybe I'm getting old or maybe the passion and desire I used to have is dying off.Nothing seems to be enough though I love pushing thru the boundaries and face all the challenges of life head on,I am still after all just humans.bound to make mistake along the way.I tripped and fall many times and I would eventually get up and move on.Though each lesson learn makes me stronger and bolder.There is still an emptiness inside me....
I seriously wonder why???
To some I maybe knowledgeable to others I'm just being cocky and to myself I'm just being me so yupp.
Though I have no clue as to why I'm recording these now.I am sure that one day when i read thru this it will make me realize something or if not just makes me smile....
hahax.....

Being a gd brother?
Achieved.
Being a gd son?
Done....
Being a gd worker?
Exemplary.

Being a wonderful bf?
???
I have been pre occupied or tied down with too many things that i feel I have left my lovely gal out.
I have no fucking idea weather or not she would understand it.Hmm....... But what I really need right now is her....
Will she be there for me???
Will she stick around ???
I can only hope and pray......

Going Crazy

It's been a super long week argh!!!
My body aches!!!
My mind - Blank!!!
My mummy is in the hospital fighting for her dear life and there is nothing I can do about it.The injury that I've sustain during e rescue still hurts,the fucking disgusting blood that comes out of my mouth from to time to time at night just makes me feel miserable.
At these moment in time I don't want to see anyone at all.The reason.........I don't need sympathy,I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me.....Shit happens and life goes on.........Everytime when things are looking up it just have to come tumbling back down.....
And each time ifall its gets greater than before.....
Now i managed to clear most of my finance and I'm still due to for my stupid FINE!!! rar!!!argh!!!
$300 is the damaged and I have no freaking Idea where to get it and from where....Maybe money will come down from the sky,worst of the worst case scenerio shall let the goveernment come down on me so yupp

To you my love ones,I Know u may not understand me or more like u think i don't understand u enough....Try to think out of the box and try to feel maybe that might help...To be exact one of my rib cage,fractured...........