It was a gd day after all..........
Hmmm..............Went to Marina Barrage for the 1st time in ma life,I have no fucking idea that Marina have change a lot lar...Bloody Hell!!! I dare say that it's definitely better then what it used to be.....Though the greenery cannot be compared to what Hortpark offer...

Spending time with ma love one is always worthwhile and not fucking waste of time....Kindda enjoyed the afternoon though i wished that you are more "manja" at times hahax.....

Life???
Financially i really don't wanna think about it coz the more i think bout it the more i can do practically nothing at this moment in time....Just need to learn to survived with what i can lor.....Coz no matter what happens I definitely need to clear all those major outstanding 1st b4 i make my own personal plans,if time/god permits then maybe just maybe i could do both at the same time if not i shall survive with the bare minimum if I can.

Oh well shit happens and life have to go on for now............................................

Wah !!!
So fucking interesting i was rushingmy work on my fucking off day!!! How cool is that?
Now that I've done it.it's my time with ma love ones........Finally..........

But got 1 slight problem though ain't got a freaking clue where to go and what to do...........Haiyo....How cock up can it gets.....ARGH!!! Please,tolong ah,somebody anybody give me an idea of what to do and where to go...........

Hmm...........

I'm just feeling alil lazy now... Trying to sleep but i can't so decided to write what's on ma mind...

• People always misinterpret what i was trying to say....It could be they fail to listen if not I just fail to use the proper sentence or words for others to understand.
• People misjudge my actions........they get the wrong idea of what I'm to do ar what I'm doing...They will only come to understand it only at a much later time when sometimes it could be too late.
• People tried to read my mind....And they always failed...Caused I'm unpredictable by nature.
• My love ones tends to understand me more if only she was able to looked close/deep enough though most of the time she just can't be bothered.
• When I'm in love I tend to give my all and ask nothing back in return which maybe my downfall....
• I can be quite emo at times i guess when i let my guard down and that sucks....
• Financially I suck due to all the unforeseeable circumstances that I've gone thru for the past months...

Oh well thats what on ma mind now and i think it kindda help to just type it and read it out loud hahaxxx

Argh!!!

As miserable as I fucking feel rite now I'm just gonna chill and take things one at a time.
Feeling alil lost?
I think maybe/should be!!!
I'm in my very low tide now and i don't really know what to do with it.Got a freaking off day tomorrow and i got no fucking plans for tonight.....
Life Sucks big time!!!
It screwed me up or was it just me who don't know how to deal with it....Maybe...
Got a fucking good idea what to do but don't really have the fucking mood to do any thing at the moment....Friends i got plenty but none can help me now coz only I myself can bring me up at the moment and no point trying to talk sense to me coz I won't listen haiz..........
Ma love where are you???
Hmm...................
Now thats like super random hahax....
Oh well just gonna listen to good music and maybe go and cycle my nite out..........Shall see how ltr k

oh well no matter how difficult life turns out to be u just got to bounce back to it.........

It may seemed the world is coming into you and that paradise maybe so far out of reach, if u just remain positive it might turn out well at the end......

Chill babe take things one at a time and go slow with the flow u may never know what u may end up with at the end of it....

Be fair...
Be true...
Be faithful and courageous...

You end up somewhere,
If not,
You die trying.....
With all the equations in the world it will add up to purpose, accomplishment and satisfaction.....

Darling I know you know this......I MISS YOU

Escape

I want to run!!!
Bring me away!!!
Hide me from all this fucking shit!!!
Wad the fuck is wrong with me!!!

I know for a fact i shudn't be thinking this way but life at home,work and relationship just feel damn sucky at the moment....Only got me,myself and I all alone ARGH motherfucking-cunt-ass wiping pigeon fuck shit ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Home all they fucking care about is to ask for $$.What they think money drop from the fucking sky is it!!!All they ever fucking worried bout is for their own fucking self.Cannot blame my dad caused he is trapped in between me and and his fucking cunt(wife).And i know myself better i will never ever put him in a situation whereby he needs to choose i would just walk away,Run away from home hmmm..............should I?I know i can survived on my own but what about dad and my little sweet ass brother haiz...........

Work as usual i got a fucking cunt Zana who even if she was about to die along the way i will not fucking bother in fact if she is hi by a fucking truck and if I'm there to witness it I will go to her and whacked her fucking face so hard that she will die from internal bleeding and that she would 4get to even fucking spell her own fucking name......Datelines and more datelines are coming my way should i just hide from it,the fact is i can't,not unless i quit and knowing me thats the last thing i would ever do........(Surrender........)

My love ones is away on her FOOT program hmmm............Damn I MISS U SO FUCKING LOADS of well just wishing u all the best in whatever u do.............

Though it feels so gd to fucking rant the problems are REAL and i still gotta deal with it haiz.......... What a fucking miserable life it is for me now I am so fucking sure ain't not gonna let this ever happen again...Time to deal with one thing at a time planned ahead and just fucking do it.With alil luck and faith I'm sure gonna pull thru.........

What a fucking boring nite...
Haiz...yup if u guess it right it needs to happen when my love ones are not around.
Been lazing in bed almost the entire evening lar feel like a fucking pig hahax...I only managed to do 1 wasted productive trip down to the shop at 930pm. Oh well my guess is its justjust me and my boring life for 2nite til i make sumtin out of it hahax.....
So yupp fucking bored to death tryied rotting/decomposing and it feels like shit.
Bet 2mrw wud be a better day hahax jsut need to pull myself together to do stuffs....What stuffs i will only find out by 2mrw.Just goin with the flow for now.

Whoa!!!

I'm becoming more of a nite creature now/Nocturnal.It's like 4am now and i still can't get to sleep..
Hmmm........I really starting to wonder why?

It could be a good thing or.....oh well you know whats the opposite.

Good

• it keeps my mind fresh and awake.
• I get to blogged.
• to do proper planing.
• i get more then enough rest then needed.
• It's like a cure to my skin sensitivity.

Bad

• Tend to miss some of my meals.
• Tend to spend less time in the day.
• Sometimes i do get a bad headache.
• I still need to work.

Oh well my guess is is this is just temporary since i only have this super long weekend off once in a very long while,though it's kinda refreshing i feel so bloody weird lar coz i did not get to spend it with my love one.

As for the one that i love haiz....she is very occupied now!!!

I know who I love and who i care most.
Do you?

People change and most of the time they failed to realized it.They do not cherished those moment they had and tend to forget about the 1 who truly loves them....Stupid Dumb fuck!!!

I maybe heartless and seemed as if i don't care.But the trufth is I'm still fucking human though i seriously question y i have a fucking heart thats pumping and emotions to feel.Said this a couple of times I am so fucking determined to change my fucking miserable life.I really fucking hate it.

Work can never be done and thats the freaking truth about fucking life.Oh well shit happens and life goes on.

Aiyoh my gf is like super bz can....And it's worse for me coz i need to hear her RANT hahax.....(It's ok though)

Work have not get any better though i managed to clear most of ma stuff i still gotta report like super early to set-up for the day ARGH!!! Oh well its just work after all hehe,,,

My finance is getting from bad to worse hopefully the downturn wud turn to an upturn soon....Coz i cannot go on like this....This is not the way i want it to be plus I've been cutting out cost BIG TIME!
Haiz... just hope it gets better really soon..It all started from JB fucking hell of well if only the government know exactly what the fuck they are doing....Thank God SG is so proper,love my country big time beb.....

Now i got this stupid skin reaction on me and for awhile it seems to be getting better till i scratched it (stupid me) Haiz....hope it gets well soon coz i definitely find it disturbing to look at it......Oh well time for a nap b4 my love ones decide to kol hahax........

After a long week of hard werk its good to just whine dwn and just chill at home....E nite was ok spending it with ma love ones,woke late the next day and then just laze arnd hahax....

Life could never feel more simplified hehe.....

Though i know i got tons of werk to clear and other commitments to think of it just feel so gd rite nw to just dun do anything nw....I'm watching Chocolate now if that helps hahax....Oh well i seemed to be in a very much gd mood now so yupp I'm gona just savor the moment....

Maybe i might go out for awhile to meet up with the boys at cb hmm..........Not too sure abt that though.....Oritey then time to get bk to my show then

Chiao

It's an interesting week...

Guess I'm back to normal now...Managed to werk out loads of stuff with regards to werk....I think I'm more of a ppl person now and i pretty much know how to handle ppl better...Let it be both customer or ppl who are werking under me....I have my own style of doin things which differ greatly from the other full-timer...I tend to undstand better and realise what is the problem that the staff are facing....

Though I have a day of off center emtionally with my gf,i think and believe she understands what I've been going thru....Now the pictures are getting clearer hope i can find the solutions soon....Like the saying goes after a heavy storm theres always a rainbow with pot of gold awaits....

Near death experience is gettin more and more often in my life now.Just need to stay vigilant...Know the surroundings trust ur unstinct and experience to guide u thru this difficult times...With luck it may lead u somewhere if not there always a valuable lesson to be learnt.....

Random??? Maybe
Trufth??? who knows???
Cheers