Restrained

It's had to change and old habit caused it's inbuilt!!!Haiz....what the fuck most of the time u would jut wanna react to "causes" immediately...

It started with a camp that they wanted me to run but I'm just so fucking lazy to really follow thru caused i know or it feels like others are taking me for granted/making use of me....Maybe it's true maybe it's not but who is there to judge so fuck it just follow the flow and let fate decides....Waahaha

The next thing that follows makes me feels confused,furious/panicked and off balance...Especially when u know your love ones are lost and the 1st instint that come to me was to leave everything behind and jump onto the next available transport or just run to the destination and give all the necessary assistance needed...I cannot sleep,eat,think or do anything proper but to know that at the end of the process the love ones learn something out of it was enough to console me.

Darn it maybe it's true sometimes i can be a perfectionist but at times you may need to let nature takes its course caused knowledge are meant to be shared and in the outdoors u have to...There are times you need to exercise your command and control and there are times that you just need humble and go back down to earth...

And that is the fact of life.....Live,love,life