Going Crazy

It's been a super long week argh!!!
My body aches!!!
My mind - Blank!!!
My mummy is in the hospital fighting for her dear life and there is nothing I can do about it.The injury that I've sustain during e rescue still hurts,the fucking disgusting blood that comes out of my mouth from to time to time at night just makes me feel miserable.
At these moment in time I don't want to see anyone at all.The reason.........I don't need sympathy,I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me.....Shit happens and life goes on.........Everytime when things are looking up it just have to come tumbling back down.....
And each time ifall its gets greater than before.....
Now i managed to clear most of my finance and I'm still due to for my stupid FINE!!! rar!!!argh!!!
$300 is the damaged and I have no freaking Idea where to get it and from where....Maybe money will come down from the sky,worst of the worst case scenerio shall let the goveernment come down on me so yupp

To you my love ones,I Know u may not understand me or more like u think i don't understand u enough....Try to think out of the box and try to feel maybe that might help...To be exact one of my rib cage,fractured...........