Though I'm kinda tired and lazy today i still managed to clear some of my never ending work haiz.........What to do?This is the real world babe u gotta do what u must in other to survived...

I believe its finally getting into the heads of my bros.(Finally) They need to find/do work in other to survive and they can't get too big headed coz reality check dudes without money its hard for u to move around....True that money cannot buy everything but it is a necessity in one's life hahax...

And something trigger me off today...Though I'm not in the best of mood i still managed to pick u up and that's like super cool....Saw loads of valentines goodies but i know exactly what i wanna get for u le....So yupp

Day in,day out I'm waiting anxiously to know the outcome of my standby...Its a fucking freaky feeling not knowing where or when u may need to go...And with the limited time given to move off it seriously doesn't help at all lar....Bloody hell..If I am to go then my only wished is that i can steal a minute or two to see u...Yup2

Anyway if i have to go then i have to go at the moment I'm just keeping my fingers crossed.....

Have not been blogging for awhile due to my commitment to the outdoors and the thoughts of doing camps just get me excited,like a small kid joining a new cca waahahas....Oh well!!! That is what I've felt...

The past few weeks was kinda cool course I went back to do camps as a grp trainer can u believe it....And to spice it all up I even back to Inno to do their so call LAST Kaizen camp...It was super interesting.

Instead of taking the groups/classes that is being assigned to you the kids choose me as their trainer and i follow suit...They are from the technical stream though very vulgar and mischievous they were the fun bunch of the entire cohort...They actually do listen and we conscious of each others safety throughout the entire camp....We were the only group which do not have any injuries/casualties in the entire camp woohoo!!!

The teachers complimented about the debrief being very impact full and how me and my buddy managed to handle the kids...It was very rewarding to see the kids actually taking down notes and treating u as their role models....And the frenship that is being fostered in just mere 3 days is priceless...................

I have been doing some thinking lately....Unpredictable i maybe but there are things that I'm bound to lack,I may not have the build,the height,the look,the dimple as u wish for.....

One thing for sure I'm working on being a better man.....

Achievements for 2008:

• Cut down on smoking


• Stay put in one job


• Start a lil bit of savings


• No fighting


• Managed to control my temper

Hopefully by end of 2009 i managed to do more......

Best 2 weeks

It was the best two weeks where I just being myself with the kids....Though it felt weird initially but i managed to get the hang of it again.....Rusty?Yes I am but i managed....the feeling of taking groups,sharing,RARA-ing is what make it all worthwhile...

Part of me is still into it though i know for sure that theres a potential burn out it feels so refreshing....The camp at KAizen for Inno was definitely one of the best.The impact created to the kids was worthwhile though they are a bunch of notoriority waahaas....

Passion is the word I've got for outdoors.Lots of lesson learnt,re-learn and UN-learnt.

Thank God!!!

Woohoo! the doctor told me that I'm gonna be fine it will swells up for awhile then it will go away...Plus to top it up u are back in Sg so yupp....

Coolness after all the turmoil or goin around in circles for the past couple of days now I can back to my normal self.....It definitely feels like crap if u suddenly just gets lost Haiz..........
Maybe it's just me i guess waahaa!!!

Anyways it's time for me to plan the year ahead.....Save loads of money,go for hollidays shall be priority for this year other then other short term plans ahax!!!

What the fuck???

I have no fucking idea what's with me today.Fall from height twice today while doing rescue and assist.
I believe I'm not in the right state of mind for being so stupid and all....Oh well it's just part of the job if the pain does not go away i will be heading to the hospital later....Haiz.....

Tried to call u a couple of times but my guess is u are busy!!!!

So be it Idam is in a down mood now with all his freaking injury thanx to his stupidity or heroic action trying to safe others while neglecting his own FUCKING SAFETY....Well shit happen right and it may have happen for a reason....It's either me or someone else...

Ever wonder why the fuck u care so much for others when they don't give a damn about u.U can be the nicest guy on earth and u may have tried ur very best to change for the better but in the end does it matter....People will only know how to judge and don't even care for ur very existence.

As for me right now I'm in fucking pain shall not continue with this and shall head out argh!!!!!!!!!Till the next entry perhaps..........................................

Hmm.....

I started the day early today hahax....Thats a major improvement on my part hahax....Went to Homely Hardware to get some tools for work,went there with Sebastian and Mr Uncle George waahaa....oh well it went well and we get all the tools that we requires for the maintenance.....All in all we spent about $1000.....Poor Sebastian have to pay upfront hahax....

After that i went to Safra Yishun for a camp brief.It feels fucking gd lar got to be a trainer again and I'm gonna be the MC in the camp thanx to my bro haiz.....Oh well its gona be fun.I'm kinda excited actually to do it...It will be in an open area open to the public and i believe there will be public viewing the entire freaking campfire....Theme is gonna be tribal and i intend to start the campfire with a BANG....with all the dressing up and the show that we trainers gonna put up hahax.....I'm gonna try my very best to make sure that it's gonna be the nite to remember and to start the new year for all outdoor lovers/professional waahaa.....

Hopefully i still got what i takes to make gd campfire....

It's a gd day today and to top it up you called just to find out something tough it's irrelevent but u actually CALLED it shows that u still care and do think of me when u are away wee...hoooo......fee...wiit....Love u DEAR

Countdown

Woohoo???
Great???
Countdown???
New year???

Whatever fuck.....I did some of the most boring things that i could think off just to end 2008.
Met up with some of the guys and guess what? after a super long while Idam drink again feewiiit!!
Drank an entire bottle of Chivas and a bottle of Jim Beam.The interesting fact is that after all that booze I'm still not drunk so what do guys do? when they are in the mood of drinking they buy loads more....At the end of the nite I'm still not drunk....Haiz.....

Maybe its different?
Maybe i just don't give a fuck!!!

Whatever it is its just like one the normal days that I spend with the guys other then ice tea have been replaced with loads of alcoholic mixed.After having the so called warm up run at CB we head down to ct hall,guess what? we end up at starbucks how cool could that be rite....Countdown was held at starfucking buck....

I could just have left meet up with the others or maybe just stay fucking home and rot to death but NO smart ass Idam decided to stay put and be there for his friends....I believe i earn one hundred freaking points for being a great friend.

Oh well life goes on it's just like another fucking day different yr that's all waahahax...
You went away and I'm cool with it....It's just same fucking boring me bored to death not knowing what i want....Bloody hell!!!

Unpredictable i maybe but i know 1 thing for sure 2009 is gonna be something new...A different chapter a new beginning.Plans are being set with major goals wanna achieve....Push thru the horizons and with gods will and your love may it be a great wonderful year ahead...

Other then that its just me ranting waahahax.....
Now i feels better woohoo......???